like boring diary entry

I can’t wait to lose weight again. Right now everything I do is just for fun. And I eat more than my body burns away. The most I do is sit and eat. And smoke and shit. On 20th I will have the first surgery ever in my life. Because of my thyroid. I’m scared but I need to trust doctors. I’m the most trustful kid in history. Trust the doctors. That’s all about my life.

Otherwise I would be still in psychiatry. Hmm. Today my Dad apologized for he pulled me like a baby doll cause he couldn’t let me go or even stay at the hills where I was meditating like a big Indian guru or something like that. I cried. He called the ambulance while I said I just want to be on my own here and stare at the stars. I even created my own Lisa star while I was connecting to the whole universe, staring at the sky.

Nevermind. I’m not too big but not as I wish to be like 75 kilograms again. Why can’t I be Harry Potter and make everything pass away quicklier.




Where can I get this and how is it called ? I had as a child. I know it’s lost. I’ve found the picture above only on one page and this page only used to sell it as .. decoration (you can put a candle inside rolleyes) or as jewellerey (double rolleyes haha).

Those nine stones should be different because each of them refers to one of the seven planets and to sun and to moon which were known in the Ancient Orient. So Mercur, Venus, Earth, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn and Uranus or was it about seven? I am not sure any more, there is something about the days of week and their names, they belong to those planets including Sun and Moon (I can try to refer to French or English words, German differs too much). Should there be nine days? Hmm. Maybe my Lotus Flower had only seven stones.

Anyway. This is not for decoration or jewellery, this is for meditation originally and you can take it and you can transform the wire to different sculptures so every sculpture will show another phase of the circle of origin, formation, ending and rebirth of the solar system.

I would like to have one again.

Title: by Bilbo Baggins

EDIT: I mean, they only knew Sun and Moon and Mercur, Venus, Mars, (besides Earth), Jupiter and Saturn in Ancient Orient, therefore the days.


Saturn for Saturday (samdi)

Sun for Sunday (dimanche)

Moon for Monday (lundi)

Mars for Tuesday (mardi)

Mercur for Wednesday (mercredi)

Jupiter for Thursday (jeudi)

Venus for Friday (vendredi)